Finland

I have been in Finland now for a year and naturally I miss my family and friends, but I also love being here.
I live in very beautiful place near sea..mind blowing nature everywhere, like in a fairytale..
I came to live here last summer, in July and at first I did not speak Finnish at all, but I knew something, so when my son went to daycare at least I understood his teachers, after 5 month living here I started Finnish course and found a practise place in the same daycare where I work now, and the best thing is that it is just a 2 minutes walk from my home.
So this work is something new in my life, in past I thought that I am not really a child friendly person even though I remember that when I was a little girl, I used to dream that someday I work in daycare..so that dream came true, 20 years later:)
Today (10.08) was my first full day (8hours) and I am really tired, I did not get much sleep at night, watching my clock after every hour..because last week it did not ring when it supposed to and Kevin missed one day in daycare:) lucky him! He likes daycare but he dislike to get up early, like me..sleepyhead.
Anyway, I like it there..I have a friendly staff and kids are adorable-shouting, crying..like usual, but doing that, they are just perfect.
And I know I will like it there.. I have some lesson to learn for myself.

Little about me

When I was born my mom named me Maria after my grandmother, that was in 83 so I guess I am 26 now..but age does not matter at all, in my mind I am still 21:) My middle name Helena I took when I graduated from my confirmation class, I do not remember actually when, but I think it was 2001-2001 in summer..
I do not believe in religions, I believe in god and angels but they are in my heart, everywhere I look and everything I do..and I do not need to be a muslim or christian for that..
I was born in Estonia and lived there for 25 years and last year,in summer 2008 I moved to Finland and happy about that, do not get me wrong I love Estonia but in here, its more peaceful right now and my mind is resting.(I really miss my friends and family though)
My mother language is Estonian /even though I am Russian, 25 years good hided secret that i have a different father, then my sis and brother/ (but in my heart I knew that, children are smart, do not forgeth that) , I speak Russian, English and Finnish..I have learned German for 5 years..but with nobody to talk to I have forgotten that one.
I enjoy my life and people in it, I love my friends and family but I also need time for myself, time to be alone with my thoughts and piece of mind.

Olen sündinud 1983 aastal 28 aprill Narva linnas, ema on mul vene rahvusest ja nagu hiljaaegu teada sain siis bioloogiline isa on mul valgevene-poola segu valgevenelane..
Minu juured ulatuvad sügavale ja minu enda jaoks praegu ei veel kuhugi, tahan end kokku võtta - uurida kelle kaudu on minu mõttemaailm selline..nüüd ma tean vähemalt seda, et tulnud on "see" isa " kaudu" aga millegipärast ta rohkem sellel teemal peatuda ei taha..esimene kohtumine temaga oli viisakas ja peale seda oli kommentaar teisele isikule, et kui ta mind silmadesse vaatas, siis nägi ta "teda".. keda siis küll? ..uudishimu, uudishimu
Loen muide kollast ajalehte ka vahest ja kroonikat:) ajaviide..aga praegusel ajal üha vähem, sest tühjusega hinge ei toida.
Ma ei teagi kas viitsin uurida, ja samas ju tahaks teada saada..
Eks kõik omal ajal, võib olla võtan veel julguse kokku ja küsin ta käest.
Senimaani aga elan teadmisega, et olen just selline nagu olema pean..tänu iseendale:) kes ikka muu kiidab kui mitte ise eks..
Vaata ka peeglisse ja tee endale pai!

Elanud olen enamuse elust Tallinnas ja paar aastat ka Rakveres..Rakvere on kiiresti arenev ja ülimalt armas linnake, rahulik ja vaikne (nädalavahetused ei lähe arvesse..väga palju mässumeelseid noori tekkinud, kes arvavad, et alkohol on Jumal ja kellegile peksaandmine näitab, kui kõva mees ta on.:))
Kolisin Soome ja elan praegu Espoos, mere ääres ja naudin siin elamist..mõnus rahulik..ei ole kiirustamist ja aeg seisab , käib omasoodu -vahest jätab üldse käimata..siis on aega kirjutada ja mõtteid mõlgutada.